Home...

We made it.

Today was hands down...the longest...most beautiful day of my life.

Court went so smoothly. Nothing to worry about at all.

We picked Hadrian up. We said our goodbyes. We know it isn't for forever, we will see them again soon but it was still bittersweet...

Hadrian has slept most of the evening. We drove home and fed him...then headed to Ashland to introduce him to his aunts and Papaw. They all had fun playing pass the baby...and Grammy was able to feed him. He promptly fell asleep again...and we drove home.

We are a family of 4...

So we are gonna take it easy tomorrow just the 3 of us hanging out (Alex went back to his mom's today) and getting to know each other...

the force is strong with this one...

hahaha...too bad my husband doesn't read my blog...he'd love that...

So with that...we say Goodnight...

and I'll be posting pictures very soon...

:)

Leaving...

I'm officially on my maternity leave! Wow.

This might just really happen...

Tonight I'm feeling...anxious.

and happy.

and nervous.

I can't believe that tonight is our last night as a family of 3.

I felt overwhelmed last night when we visited. I'm not sure why. Hadrian was quite a bit fussier than usual and we all knew that it would be the last time we visited before Tuesday. I know they aren't judging me...and of course they know that I am a first time mom...but I still feel judged when I can't get him to stop crying. I'm so insecure sometimes. I did reign supreme and end up being the one who got him to quiet down before I passed him to Daddy who promptly rocked him to sleep.

I just can't believe that after 2 years of waiting I am mere hours away from being a mommy.

I'm hoping that I get some rest tonight. We probably won't...it is worse than Christmas Eve...but our payout is going to be so much more! I am so excited.

So prayers please as birthmom goes to court at 11am...and then we go at 2pm...As soon as it is over we are headed to pick him up. We are going to let the family take their time saying goodbye though. We do not want to rush them so I'm not sure how long we will be there. So that is basically it...

I'll update soon.

We've got a Court Date!

I can't write much...

But we finally have a court date....

Nov 3, 2009 at 2pm!

Exactly a week from RIGHT NOW...

Wow, I feel a lot better!!

adoption is...waiting...

Here we are...Another day come and gone...Another day closer to bringing our son home.

Our visits with him are so bittersweet. I look forward to them but I also get very sad when I think of them. I know they are just visits...and after an hour (or two if we are lucky...well...we usually are there for 2 hours...who am I kidding?) We have to put him down and walk out the door. We take the band-aid approach...We usually do it very quickly...a quick snuggle and kiss on the forehead and out the door we go. I also like to leave when he is asleep. I like to think that he always fights sleep because he has noticed this pattern of us showing up...him falling asleep...us leaving and him waking up with out us. But I'm pretty sure he just likes to fight sleep because he can. As I was saying...leaving him is getting harder and harder to do.

But soon...very soon...we will leave the house as a family. We will no longer be empty handed...we will be...full handed? Oh what a day...I can hardly wait.

We did hear from the lawyer today...but still nothing concrete. Ugh. Don't the court people know that our baby boy needs to come home soon so I can slather him with mommy kisses?! We found out that the lawyer requested tomorrow, Wed, or Thus as the best days...So really...we should know something tomorrow...right? Right.

Here is a strange thing...The two year anniversary of our house fire is on Thursday...October 29th...As much as I would love to pick Hadrian up Wed or even tomorrow...a part of me wants our court day to be on Thu. I feel like the Lord is wiping that date clean and giving us a huge blessing. We will no longer look at the 29th as a day of mourning but as a day of celebration!

But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.
Isaiah 40:31

I am finding my peace in this verse...I know that this is all in God's time...I know that...Sometimes I forget...but I know waiting is renewing my strength. It is not draining me...no...it is giving me strength to continue on this bumpy road to our son...

Pretty soon we'll be able to post pictures of Hadrian...here is a teaser...I took this picture today with my phone, so it is the most recent pic of him that I have....

:) beautiful :)

I apologize if this post feels disjointed...my mind is moving quicker than my fingers....

Bumps in theRoad

Ah. This journey has been anything but smooth. It seems at every turn we've faced one hurdle or another. I was looking forward to being done...but it looks like we have another bump...we are dealing with it like anything else. Basically it comes down to a misunderstanding. We definitely thought that our home study cost was coming out of the trust fund that we had through the lawyer. We were unfortunately wrong.

So here we are...$1200.00 short. I had one really bad day full of tears but I have since moved past that. Thankfully I have a great support system in my loving Hubby. We sat and prayed and we know that this is what the Lord has called us to do. To be the lucky parents of this adorable little boy.

We were really at a loss of what to do so we called the lawyer and the home study agency. The lawyer was basically no help. But the home study agency said that we could set up payments. So we are taking that route at this point.

Justin talked to our Pastor about the money and we were hoping to put a t shirt flier in the update at church. Our Pastor said instead of a flier he wanted to do a love offering for us. Yay. So we are waiting until after receiving that to proceed with setting up payments. We are so thankful for our church family. We'd be lost with out them. Seriously.

So if you would have asked me last Thursday...this would have been a road block. Basically halting our entire progress. Making it unable to continue...but today...I know it is not a road block...but simply a bump. A bump in this long adventure to bring our son home. It sucks...but it is what we have to do. So we will do it.

Justin just got off the phone with the home study agency! So here is the most up-to-date information available! Ok. The lawyer sent the agency $600 from our trust. So the agency is able to release our *ALMOST* finished home study. Justin's employer reference finally came through so they are finishing our home study right now as I type this. They are sending it to the lawyer today! Once the lawyer has it he can file with the courts! Praise the Lord! We are still $1200 short but at least we can move forward.

I called on your name, O Lord,from the depths of the pit. You heard my plea: “Do not close your ears to my cry for relief.” You came near when I called you, and you said, “Do not fear.” -Lamentations 3:55-57

Home Stretch!!

We are almost done with this crazy roller coaster ride! I'm so pumped. The Lord has seriously provided us with so many blessings along this journey. We have two major updates to announce...

The first is that my birth certificate finally came and Justin's employer reference has been finished. So we now have everything collected so that our home study can be finalized. It is seriously thisclose to being finished. Hopefully Justin will be hand delivering it to Caring for Kids on Monday or Tuesday! What a relief. This morning I was double checking everything in our folder and couldn't find Alex's physical so I of course was freaking out thinking that we would have to re-do his physical because Justin was sure he had put it on the entertainment center. We searched high and low...and finally gave up. I resigned to the thought of waiting for another dr appointment and just dealing with it...but good news...Justin found it. It was never on the entertainment center. It never made it to the living room. He left it on the dishwasher in the kitchen. Ha. I'm so thankful that he was able to find it...

And our second announcement is....We have raised $4715!! This is an amazing number to me. I'm shocked and overwhelmed and humbled and ecstatic! I actually have 10 people that "ordered" a shirt that haven't paid. If we get those 10 shirts paid for...we would be within $100 of our goal...But Justin and I will pay the difference whether those 10 shirts get paid for or not...So...yeah!! We are done actively seeking donations and selling shirts...although you can still order a shirt if ya want...or donate for that matter...haha. ALSO...our lawyer said it was ok that we did not have the full $5,000.00 and that as long as we get it in as soon as we can. So that is it!

We are able to go to court as soon as our home study is finalized! Hadrian's birthmom is still all for going through with the adoption and Hadrian's birth grandparents are still being amazing. We are actually going to go to court in the county that Justin and I reside in and not the county that birthmom resides in because it will go much quicker. We aren't sure what our relationship with them will be after we get Hadrian, we are open to many things so we might let them tell us what they want and go from there. They are amazing people and I can't imagine them not being a part of his life in some way. We are very grateful to them. Without them we wouldn't have Hadrian :)

In other baby news...I was able to give Hadrian a bath yesterday. He seemed to like it. I was very nervous but I think I did ok for a first timer. Right now I'm doing Hadrian's first load of laundry...I've just been piling all the stuff we've collected but really want to get organized. Soon all the clothes will be laundered and put away nicely in their drawers. It will be nice to know what we have in what sizes...

One Step at a Time...

Well. Its been over a week since I updated. Please excuse my absence. It may be a cop-out to say this, but really...we've been busy.

We had the Pancake Breakfast and Silent Auction on Saturday. It went okay. We went in to that needing $1700 and walked away needing about $800. So that was a great feeling. Being under $1,000...It also felt great to be done with the whole pancake thing. That was the biggest headache with this adoption. I don't think I'll ever, for the rest of my life, even consider doing anything that even resembles it. It was hard. Totally worth it, but so hard.

Well since then we've gotten a few donations and are currently a little over $500 away from our goal! Yay!! We have been so humbled by everyone's generosity and out pouring of love. It has been amazing. So we have a few more things to do to finish up the home study. I need my birth certificate, so we are going to the post office shortly to overnight our request for that. We also need to get Justin's employer reference. We are just waiting on that to come back from them. My dad is getting finger-printed tomorrow....and from there...we. are. done! So even though we didn't meet the goal of bringing Hadrian home before the end of September, I am proud to say we have moved through this very quickly and he will be home soon! Very soon.

We were able to see him on Monday. Justin was able to feed him. *swoon* Is there anything more wonderful than seeing the man you love take care of a baby...We are continuously amazed by Hadrian's brith family. They are such sweet people. We will hopefully get to see him again sometime this weekend. Maybe Sunday, not sure.

Last night we were able to spend a few hours with our good friends Kari, Matt, and their son Zach. They are a great family and have been so supportive of us through everything. They had a house fire a year before we did...and they adopted Zach three years ago...Coincidence? I think not. I fully believe that the Lord blessed us with these friends to help guide us through and to give us someone who we can share things with. Even though I wouldn't want anyone to go through a house fire, I'm not gonna lie...It has been a relief to have others who know what it feels like. Anyway, Kari and Matt have been great and it was wonderful to get to see them for a few hours.

Hadrian = Love

So I absolutely adore Hadrian. He is hands down the cutest little guy I've ever laid eyes on. He is just perfect. He has lots of dark hair. LOTS. Lizzie (his birth aunt) does his hair into a mohawk. Hadrian also has a teeenee tiny cleft in his chin.**swoon** It is the most adorable tiny cleft...

His umbilical cord fell off. Yay. It does make me sad that I have people telling me when things happen and what the dr says and this and that and how he likes to be held or burped....or whatever. Because I want to be the one telling others these things. I know I need to be patient, but sometimes its really hard. Especially being as close as we are to the goal...but not being quite there. It was hard to leave him today...empty arms...well they just suck...

I did, finally, change his diaper. He didn't pee on me...we have a verbal agreement that he won't pee on me...but he has my blessing to pee on others...ha.

My mom and Kenton were able to meet him tonight. Kenton even held him for a bit. It really cracked me up because I think Hadrian has Kenton's nose. So it was funny to see them side by side.

Also, Julie invited me over one day to basically see his schedule. Wow. That makes this feel so much more real. I mean, I know that this is happening and it isn't a dream. But talking about his schedule just really hit me. I don't know. I am not even sure MY schedule will allow it for me to visit like that, because of days off and certain fundraisers and stuff...but I'm certainly going to try...who wouldn't want to spend the day with beautiful Hadrian.

Ah. So I'm exhausted.

Praying for peace...and sleep...and peaceful sleep...won't you join me in that prayer :)

Silent Auction Stuff...***edit***

I've been meaning to get a list going for quite a while...But we've just been so busy. So here is what we've gotten so far. We might still have a few more things come in, I'm not sure.

4 movie passes to Cinemark Movies 10

$25 Gift certificate for Red Lobster

4 Free Buffets to CiCi's Pizza

2 Cute as Pie headbands from Lindsey

A necklace/bracelet/earring set from Jordan

3 afghans made and donated by my lovely grandma

2 small decorative quilts

1 free sub from Quiznos

A small curling iron donated by Sally's

A pink scrapbook that says "He's Mine" on the front

Bob the Builder wall appliques

An antique Japanese tea serving table

2 antique dolls

Tae kwon do punching bag and accessories

An awesome drawing of Ronald Reagan by Jerid

A customized Illustration by Jerid...the winner of this auction will give Jerid a picture and he'll draw it...its pretty cool stuff....

An orange tote with a scarf and a necklace from Maurices

Original artwork by Jeni

$100 gift certificate for a tattoo by Arin from Sharp Images in Orrville :)

$10 gift card to Longhorn

1lb of Pike Place Roast Coffee, 1lb of Anniversary Blend and a Coffee Starbucks coffee mug

$10 gift certificate to Troyer's Home Pantry

Basket of dressings and syrups from Bob Evans

$25 gift card to Lehman's Hardware

Free haircut by Sheila from our church :)

2 oak shelves (I'm unsure of the size, but I'll update that as soon as I know)

I may have forgotten something, but I think that is it. If I think of anything else or we get anything else I'll update the list...

We got a few more t-shirt sales and another donation and our total is now over $3,000!!! Praise the Lord! We are doing so well. I'm really hoping we'll have Hadrian home by the end of the month. We got to hang out with him and his birth family again yesterday. He is amazing. I can not wait til we can bring him home. This time we were able to take Justin's mom Tawny and Alex. Alex is an amazing older brother...he's had lots of practice...It was really nice to see him hold his baby brother so gently. It was a great time and I am so thankful they will let us bring our families in to their home.

I've got a wedding today, so nothing really happening on the adoption front...unless I take my t shirt order form with me to the wedding...hmmmmmmmmm....

We put the FUN in fundraiser....

Ok, not really. We had a very low-key table set up at CiCi's last night. But I had a blast. I was able to see friends I haven't seen in awhile and was able to talk to people about our situation. It was a great night. So here is how we did...We sold 2 t shirts! We made $83 from the receipts! And my mom won the 50/50 raffle...so we were able to keep the whole amount...which was $100! So with the donations, last night alone, we made $823!!!! WOW! That total blew us away! We are so thankful for our friends and family that came out! Our family doctor even came out...it was just awesome to see these people rally around us!

So today we woke up with new hope...and new energy! We are getting back out there to collect more things for the silent auction. We are doing great with things so far and I promise to blog about all the loot we've gotten! So everyone mark your calenders for Sept 26th...8am-11am...at Heartland Christian Center in Wooster. Tickets are only $5!!

Later today we are taking Justin's mom and Alex over to meet Hadrian...we are all very excited!

The Night We Met

It was a chilly September evening, the night we met.

You wore a white onesie with yellow trim.

And silly Snoopy socks Lizzy thought were cute, even though they were too big.

I was able to feed you and Daddy burped you.

Daddy and I sat on the couch and just stared at you.

After Daddy and I left, we loved that we could still smell you.

You held my fingers while you drank your bottle.

We took a lot of pictures, the night we met.

And asked a lot of questions.

You made funny faces that made everyone laugh.

You couldn't keep your eyes open for more than five minutes.

Daddy got off work at 8 and we rushed over to meet you as soon as he clocked out.

We missed a street and did a U-turn in the middle of the road.

There wasn't a cloud in the sky, the night we met.

And Daddy and I loved every second.

We are very blessed that we get to be your Mommy and Daddy.

Getting down to business...

Justin and I have been working pretty hard on this adoption for the past couple of days. I'm so exhausted, I could probably sleep for 5 days straight. But I can't because my baby boy needs to come home. And that thought is keeping me going.

Yesterday we were in contact with the birth-family. They are amazing. I feel so blessed that our little guy will grow up in our family, but one day will know what all these wonderful people, who are also his family, did to help us along the way. They have been sending us pictures since yesterday and that alone has been amazing. I wish so many things could have been different, like getting to go up to the hospital, but I am so thankful for what we have received. I seriously couldn't stop looking at my phone today. He is too perfect. I would LOOOOVE to post a picture but due to privacy reasons and the fact he's not *legally* our son, I can't. Soon though, hopefully soon everyone will get to see how adorable he is.

So since Wednesday we've been working getting donations lined up for our silent auction. I typed up a letter and yesterday and today Justin has been going to area businesses telling them our need and delivering letters. My husband is amazing. I need to make a post about all the reasons why I love him...but for now that'll have to wait. I knew he was excited about the baby and that he wanted the baby just as much as I do...but he moved out of his comfort zone to help bring our baby home, and was proving with out a doubt he is totally committed to this. Even just typing it makes me want to cry.

So our silent auction donations are seriously stacking up. We've got some pretty heavy hitters coming in and I'm totally pumped. I am feeling so blessed to have such amazing friends that are just pouring themselves out for us. It is amazing. And humbling. And I am so thankful. I am going to make a post listing all of our silent auction items...but that might have to wait until tomorrow. I'm quickly becoming sleepy.

So in other adoption news...we had our fire inspection today. We passed. Which is good. The inspector made Justin unplug our Bath and Body Works WallFlowers....but other than that we were good to go. Praise the Lord. I mean, we knew we would be fine, but it was still annoying.

We are slowly getting through the list of things we need to get done. Our physicals are next week and thats the last MAJOR thing we have to do. The rest is paper chasing...

And the best news of all...We get to meet the little guy tomorrow. Justin's work schedule is hectic, to say the least, this weekend so when he gets off work tomorrow at 8 we are headed over the maternal-grandma's house. I'm so excited to meet him...the crazy thing is...with the first picture they sent to me, when I opened it I felt like I already knew him. I know that may sound crazy, but it is so true. I felt an amazing peace fill me and I just felt like I knew him. It was a great feeling.

I've rambled long enough and I really need sleep. I slept through Justin's alarm and my alarm this morning....not good...

He's finally here!

After a very long day of waiting I finally got the call! He finally entered the world at 10:15 on Wed night...They did an emergency c-section on birthmom. He weighs 8lbs 7oz and is 20" long!

So now...we wait some more. We will be headed to the hospital if birthmom and dad are still feeling like they will go through with the adoption...but if there is any inkling of any feeling like they are going to change their minds, then we won't be going up tomorrow. So we are just taking one step at a time.

We are in continuous prayer for the birth parents as they face this decision. This not a decision I could ever make and I just hope that they do what is best for him...

So please just continue to pray and pray some more....

Updates everywhere...

First of all...I just wanted to the world to know that my little brother got his temps today...so watch for him out on the road! So there is my fair warning...

Ok, on to adoption related things...Birthmom is being induced tomorrow. It is earlier than we were hoping...but we will deal with this like anything else with this adoption. One day at a time. Our contact will call us as soon as he is delivered and we will decide from there whether we will go on up to the hospital. I'm thinking that we will go even if all we can do is peer in at him through the nursery window.

We are still fundraising. But it is coming in. Praise the Lord. We are selling t shirts like there is no tomorrow....At least I feel like I am. We are also going to be doing a CiCi's Pizza donation night thing. Basically you advertise that you will be at CiCi's collection donations and you collect receipts from people as they pay...at the end of the night you turn in the receipts and then CiCi's sends you a check for a percentage of the amount in sales. So we are doing that Sept 17th, from 4-8 at the Massillon CiCi's.

And then there will be a pancake breakfast. We are planning that for Sept 26th. We are hoping to also have a silent auction. Basically between work, homestudy stuff, baby stuff, and fundraising stuff I will be one busy person. I'm dealing with the stress as it comes...Sometimes it just hits me like a huge wave and I have to sit back and remember just who brought us here. He knows what he is doing. He has always known. And with that comes an amazing Peace that only He can provide. That is where I need to be mentally from here on out. Trying not to focus on the what ifs, but on the Lord.

And that catches everyone up...

Tonight, I probably won't be getting much sleep.

And tomorrow Hadrian will be born. What an amazing thing.

What's in a name?

So a few people have been asking about the name Hadrian.

"What does it mean?", "Where did you get it?", "What's with the wall?" etc. etc.

Well, lets start with the name...Hadrian. I have found a few meanings...Behind the Name says Hadrian simply means "From Hadria"...Hadria being a town in Northern Italy...Alternatively Nameberry says Hadrian means "dark haired"...Neither are particularly awesome meanings...but that is ok. Not all names have amazing meanings...just check my name at Behind the Name not everyone is blessed....and thats ok...

Basically I fell in love with the name while I was in Rome in 2005. Hadrian is the Roman Emporer who had the Pantheon built. The original Pantheon had burned down and he decided another should be built. So build it they did.

I remember standing on a side street near a McDonald's, listening to our tour guide talk about Hadrian...I thought...whoa, that is a stinking awesome name. I stored it in my name file...with the hundreds of other potential names I have floating around...Flash forward to meeting Justin. We had been dating one month...we were sitting at CiCi's pizza discussing baby names...and I threw it out there and he didn't dislike it. That is a major accomplishment with Justin. He usually at least dislikes most names. He is absolutely the opposite of me in the name game...So since that day Hadrian has been on our list. I love it more and more every day.

Ok, your history lesson is not over just yet...Not only did Hadrian have the Pantheon built he also built a HUGE wall...Ha. The Roman empire had stretched very far at this time...it had expanded all the way to England. But the Roman citizen's there were being attacked by barbarians from the north. So to put an end to that Hadrian built a wall that stretched across the entire Island. The Romans did some amazing things in their time and Hadrian's wall was one of them. The wall can still be seen today and actually you can camp along the trail of the wall...which I only recently found out about, but would love to do it.

So here we are, in 2009, building a new Hadrian's Wall. Not one made of stone and rocks but one made of love and hope and support. We are unable to make this adoption happen on our own...we need the love, hope, and support of our friends and family. You are helping make this adoption possible. You are helping our family to grow. You are helping to bring our son home....

We chose Hadrian as our son's name a few days after agreeing to adopt him. We originally planned to take our secret list of 4 names with us for when we met him and we would decide then what his name would be. But we talked it over a few times and finally decided that our situation was just too different. This baby needed a name...a strong name. A name that stood for something...Hadrian...

A short paragraph on his two middle names. We are fully aware that our last name is not an easy last name and giving our child(ren) two middle names is not making life easier for them, but I just love names. There was no way we could narrow them down any further. Caleb is after Justin's best friend Caleb. He is the guy that brought Justin to our church and he was best man at our wedding...Christopher was also a friend of Justin's. Christohpher was KIA in Iraq in 2005. Christopher is also my older brother's middle name. This name just fits perfectly...

So there you have it...Hadrian Caleb Christopher...

T-shirt sales...

So it looks like we might finally be rolling with the shirt sales. We have picked a design and we are now trying to figure out if we will be able to ship the shirts. I mean, we will be able to ship the shirts we just need to figure out how and how much it will cost the shirt buyer. Or something. It is getting late and I can barely think.

We will be selling the shirts for two weeks for sure. We will then place an order and if we need to keep selling shirts, or people want to keep buying them, we will sell another batch. I'm hoping we can get enough sold in the first batch but I'm prepared to sell t shirts for as long as I need to.

Today we got our fingerprints done. It is very interesting how they are done electronically. It was also more expensive than we anticipated. But so is everything with this adoption. We better just get used to it. Next week our cat and dog, Severus and Remy have an appointment with the vet. We need to get them caught up with their shots and then the next week we have a Dr visit for our physicals. Well, hopefully the Dr will do our physical. We are patients of her's from her old practice, so technically we are "new patients" and have to go through the whole process, but we will certainly give her the adoption sob story so maybe she won't make us come back for another visit.

I also need a copy of my birth certificate...That little piece of paper is always so elusive. I have requested a copy of that so many times...driver's license, passport, marriage license...how sad that after every use, i lose it. This time it will go directly into the fire safe where it will happily stay until I need it again...

Home Study Visit 1 and 2...

So yesterday was the first home study visit. Today was the second. It has been a rough couple of days to be honest. Its one thing to answer questions about yourself but then to have your house judged as someone walks through it1. Its not fun. But I know it will be worth it.

I don't know why I bother worrying, because really in the end it is all handled. Of course. I knew it would be.

Yesterday she focused on Justin. She seriously asked him questions for like 2 hours straight. They are deep personal questions so its not easy. Today was me. I was a mess at work ALL day. Today was her actual walk through of the house too, checking for safety issues. I was seriously nervous that she had her giant red *FAIL* stamp ready to go...but of course in the end, everything was fine.

So even though only one fraction of the work is done, it is slowly coming together. We background checks and also clearance from the child abuse list, fingerprints, a financial statement, pet immunization forms, and a few other odds and ends. It seems like a never ending list of things to go through. I know we will get there. But even though this was just the home study visits, a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. This is the part I was dreading the most. And now its over.

Rejoice!!

Another amazing thing happened to me today. The birthmom's cousin, is my friend from work. She called me yesterday telling me that she needed to give me something. I assumed it would be a cute little outfit. Today she handed me a card...with a large donation in it! I was shocked. She proceeded to tell me that her father's side of the family has 13 siblings and a long while ago they decided to not do Christmas present exchanges, instead they would adopt a family and donate money to them. This year my friend's mom and dad were in charge and her mom came up with the idea to adopt us. She sent a mass email to the family saying "Christmas is coming early, lets adopt this couple because they are adopting one of us". *tears* I was speechless. My friend says there is more coming. I am so thankful...

Rejoice!!

I am thankful that I listened to the Lord. I heard him call and I didn't back down. We moved forward...and we are still moving forward...until we bring him home. Hadrian is a blessing, even now, unborn. Wow. I know this guy is going to do great things in the Kingdom and I can't wait to see them happen!

And again I say...Rejoice!!

T Minus 24 hours

I can't write much because I am getting ready for work. But I wanted to let everyone know how our meeting with the lawyer went. It went ok. He is referring us to another lawyer and he will remain birthmom's lawyer. Which is fine with us. The "bad" news is that we do have to have the money up front. He said we would need about $5,000.00. Which is about a thousand more than we thought. So if you have noticed the change on facebook....that would be why.

We are not discouraged, just more determined. So the plan today is to call the new lawyer and set up another meeting. Tomorrow is the only day Justin and I both have off, so it will probably be sometime tomorrow.

We are still working on the t shirt sales, those should be coming very soon. I've been asking people if they would be interested in buying one or two and the response is nearly overwhelming. So I'm pumped about that. We should be able to meet the goal pretty quickly.

So thats where we are today. I'm headed to work now. Woo.

Busy Busy Busy

The past 5 days have seriously been a whirlwind. We have been doing something adoption related every single day...and it still feels like we've got a mountain of stuff to do.

I called this morning and scheduled our homestudy. The first meeting will be on Wed and 10am and the second on Thu at 4:30pm. We are trying to get our house into ship shape...So we've been trying to clean non-stop. Not that our house was a huge mess it was just completely unorganized with my parents moving in and everything. Boxes everywhere. How fun for us. The good news is, we're almost done.

The birthmom has her appointment with the lawyer today at 3. I'm not exactly sure what they go over with her, but it shouldn't be too painful. Our appointment is at 4:45...I thought that I worked 7-4 today, but I was wrong. I close today, so I plan on taking an extra long lunch. Oops. I'm sure no one will mind. I don't really know what is going to happen at the appointment, but it shouldn't last long.

Also, with the help of our great friends, Donna and Jerid, we will be selling t-shirts. We don't know what they will look like just yet, but we are excited about getting out there and letting people know our situation with Hadrian. We are also hoping to schedule and plan a chili dinner with possibly a silent auction. Its an idea that we are throwing around and trying to line up. So I'll be sure to let everyone know as soon I know something.

So I think that covers everything for now. Please continue to pray for us and for the birthmom. This is not an easy decision she is making and we are just praying for her to have a peace about it.

The Beginning...

All stories have a beginning. Well the journey to our son Hadrian began on Wed, August 26, 2009. That was the day we learned of him and his impending birth. Of course the story of our family began years ago when Justin and I got married. So here is what brought us to today...

Justin and I got married on a beautiful day in June 2007. We had fallen quickly in love the year before and wanted the world to know it. I had always known in my heart that adoption would be a big part of my life. Its like it flowed through my veins. But it was always an "in the future" type of thing. We immediately strarted trying to grow our family the conventional way but after 2 years of trying and a few infertility treatments we were tired and stressed. I like to say we were on pause from trying. Justin wasn't able to go back to school and it seemed like we should focus our energy on that...and we did...until August 26th.

An acquaintance that I have through work approached me.
Acq: Leah, I have a personal question...Have you and Justin ever thought about adopting...
Me: Oh yeah, of course...you know...in the future...
Acq: Well.....(loooooong paaauuuuse) My cousin is pregnant. She is going to have a baby any day and they need a family. She is not able to keep him and they are basically scrambling to find a family. I thought of you....
(my mind was racing...she thought of us? No one ever thinks of us for anything.)
Me: Wow. Um...let me talk to my husband and we'll get back with you.

I nearly immediately called Justin. I was at work at this point and couldn't talk for long. I told him "There is a baby about to be born that needs a family, I can't give you details now, but I need you to just pray. I'll call you when I get off work" all he was able to say was "Ok".

So as soon as I clocked out I called him back and we discussed the few details that I knew...and we both knew in our hearts what had to be done. We decided to go for it. We have been wanting a baby and this baby is about to be born at any time and he will not have a mommy and daddy to take care of him. It breaks my heart typing that out. We were called to love this baby.

We have work that needs to be done to bring Hadrian home. We need to raise $4,000.00 and complete all the necessary paperwork. We are hoping to get this done as soon as we can as Hadrian's due date is rapidly approaching. Birthmom was at 1cm on Tuesday and the doctors told her she could go at any time. We are hoping he stays nestled in for as long as he can because of everything that needs to be done. So the more time we have the better. Our home study will begin next week with a social worker coming into our home. I would be lying if I told you I'm not nervous. It is hard to remember that she is on our side of this adoption when she comes in to our home for an inspection/intervew. I'm nervous.

I'm exhausted and I'm hungry. But I can't sleep and I can't eat...because I'm here thinking about my son...Hadrian Caleb Christopher...

I'm going to close with the Bible verse(s) I've been turning to for the past few weeks...
Isaiah 43:5-6

5. Do not be afraid, for I am with you;

I will bring your children from the east

and gather you from the west.

6. I will say to the north, 'Give them up!'

and to the south, 'Do not hold them back.'

Bring my sons from afar

and my daughters from the ends of the earth--

Oh yeah....