Full Circle

So tonight...I feel like we have come full circle...Sept 2 was the day of our first home study visit and tomorrow, April 16 we will have our final post placement visit.

The last one!

Praise the Lord!

We are so excited to be closing this chapter of Hadrian's story.

Our countdown continues...we are at 17 days until finalization. We got our final petition to the courts that we have to sign and mail. It is just so cool to be seeing and saying words like "last" and "final" and of course "finalization".

I was explaining our whole story to someone at work. She had a few questions about the whole waiting 6 months to finalize. I was happy to answer them...but it really got me thinking again about just how blessed we are. We haven't had any worries about the adoption being contested. We haven't had any issues with the birth family at all. We are actually close with them. We still refer to them as Grandpa K and Grandma J and of course Aunt Lizzie and Uncle Mike. I am thankful they get to be a part of his life.

I have so much to be thankful for. We used to sing a song at church...it said "Count your blessings name them one by one...count your blessings to see what God hath done" When I do this I get so overwhelmed. When I think about all the blessings we have encountered as a couple I am just grateful to our Lord. He has blessed us over and over again even in the darkest night when it seemed our cries would never end. He was there.

I could marvel forever at the blessings bestowed upon us...but I would rather encourage others to look remember to count your blessings. Sometimes the world gets to us and its easy to look at all of our misery and mistakes...It happens to everyone. People have bad days. But nothing will get you out of a funk faster than thinking and dwelling on our blessings.

Rumor has it...

So the rumor is...today while I was at work Hadrian said "maaaaaa"...the sound could not be replicated upon my return home so the authenticity of this rumor is still in question.

Tomorrow may or may not put an end to this rumor...

But I sure hope it does!

Oh and 29 days to go...

30 Days and counting

It is official.

We have begun the countdown.

30 days...

736 hours...

Justin and I will officially be Hadrian's parents. Oh wow.

We are so excited for this all to be over. It has been an amazing journey but I can't wait to have this chapter closed. He will forever be ours. We have 1 more post placement visit with our amazing social worker, Dena. She has gone above and beyond what I would expect of any social worker. I hope that when we update our home study to one day adopt more babies that we will have her or someone just as amazing as her.

We got our taxes back and with that we are making the final payments for the home study and post placement visits. [Thank you Lord for meeting all of our financial needs...]Who woulda thought we'd pay people to inspect every aspect of our homelife. Hehe. Its tedious, and I know why it is done...so I am thankful that these steps are here to protect little ones...but I wish we could have opted out of them.

Hadrian had a rough week this week. At first we thought maybe he was getting a tooth or something but it turned out he had a bug. He was not sleeping well at night and was running a fever. It was really tough watching him suffer and not being able to really do anything about it. We gave him tylenol but it didn't always help. Thankfully after a good 3-4 days he seems to be all better. Justin and I on the other hand have been battling it ourselves since then.

So our little guy is growing up so quickly. He hits his hands together in an *almost clap* but his fists are clenched type movement. He sits up unassisted and can almost get himself into a sitting up position by himself. He is loving his foods...I try to make his baby food...but only really had luck with butternut squash and sweet potatoes...everything else I tried didn't really work out well. But he loves both of those...and peas, carrots, apple sauce, green beans, and of course bananas. He will freak out if you eat a banana within sight of him...I think he believes all bananas belong to him and we are just here to peel them for him. He still isn't saying mama yet but I did hear an "Mmmmmmmmmm" once...so I think it'll happen soon. He is also soooooooooo close to being mobile. He gets up on his hands and knees and he rocks back and forth. A few times he has moved his knees but his hands don't know to move yet so he ends up looking quite silly and then falling over.

He is giving sweet kisses and will hold his arms up/out to be picked up. It always works for mama. He is weighing somewhere around 18lbs....and is almost 29"...97th percentile for height!! He also has a lovey...He just loves to snuggle with his Pooh bear that his Grammy and Grandpa gave to him at Christmas. I'm not a fan of Pooh, but I'm not gonna lie, its probably the cutest thing I've ever seen to see him hug and snuggle it.

So here we are...beginning our fifth month of him being home. We have learned so much and we have so much love for him. Sometimes we still marvel at the fact that the Lord chose us to be blessed by this sweet little boy.

This month will be a good month...and will drag on, I'm sure. But we will enjoy each day and take them one at a time. Relishing each moment we've been given with this little one. We will be patient and wait because we know we have the strength to endure...

Only 30 days...
...736 hours....

Dadadada

Hadrian has been saying "Dadadadada" for a few days now. Its pretty cute...even though he doesn't really know whoooooo dadadada is....Hadrian also will not "perform" when he sees the camera. He has done that since pretty much day one. He becomes more interested in the camera in his face.

Its about time

We found out from our lawyer last week that we finally have a court date! I am soooo excited. I haven't started counting down just yet...but our court date is May 3, 2010 at 3pm. They said they like to get it as close to 6 months post placement as possible...I had no idea that it would be almost exactly 6 month. It is 180 days and one hour from our previous court date! Whoa! How awesome.

I'm also very excited because even though we were planning on celebrating Mother's Day whether we had gone to court or not...we will *legally* be Hadrian's parents. So I will legally be allowed to celebrate the holiday :) I'm pretty stoked about that.

We are currently trying to figure out exactly how to celebrate this amazing milestone. Not sure if a quiet family gathering or a huge celebratory bash (which, of course probably wouldn't be that huge...) would be more fitting...Just weighing our options at this point...But I'm thinking inviting people out to eat. That way the cost would be minimal for us...and no planning (except maybe calling ahead for a reservation) needed...But I just don't know...

About a week and a half ago...I met Hadrian's birthmom. She is so cute. She was quiet, of course and I was on break at work plus I wasn't expecting to meet her at that moment. It was kind of awkward, I'm not gonna lie...but it was still pretty cool. I asked Lizzy the next day if she said anything about me. Lizzy said "she didn't say anything to me...but mom told me that she said you seem great and she is glad that you are raising her son" I froze momentarily. I think my heart stopped. I was hoping for a "yeah she didn't think you were a total loser"...but I got so much more.

It is a trend with our adoption. We are continuously blessed. Over. and. Over. It never ends. And I am still caught off guard. It still catches me. It still makes my heart skip a beat. I know the Lord answers prayers...and I've always known it...but now I know know it.

This past weekend Alex wanted to wear Hadrian in the mei tai. I of course want to promote brotherly bonding in any way I can...plus it is super cute to see men/boys baby wearing. Justin helped me tie it on him, which was harder than I expected...I can throw the baby on my back by myself (thanks to loooooots of practice) but getting him tied onto a little body was tough. Alex probably only wore him for 10 minutes...but it was enough to snap a bunch of pictures. I absolutely love to spread the babywearing love...and I hope that Alex will maybe someday use this for his own kiddos.

Ahh, my boys are amazing. I am thankful for all three of them.

5 months...

So Justin was in a car accident tonight. Thankfully everyone is ok. He did not have Hadrian in the car with him. He rear-ended a guy so he was cited...Justin convinced the guy to take a ride in the ambulance because he had been out of it when Justin went up to his car. It was really scary to get that call from him...I'm so thankful that he is ok. I don't know what I would have done otherwise. He said his back is starting to to hurt so I think I'm gonna take tomorrow off so he can rest and I'll take care of the baby. Onward to happier things...

Hadrian is 5 months old and 1 day today. I can't believe he has been home for 3 months now. It really does not feel like 3 months. He is growing basically in front of our eyes. Some days I really miss little squishy newborn Hadrian...and at the same time I marvel at all the things he has learned and I'm excited to see what he will do next.

Hadrian had his doctor appointment last Thursday. We've decided to delay some of his vaccines so he isn't getting bombarded with all of them at one time. He seems to handle them very well. He of course cries at first but soon calms down. We watch for a fever or any symptoms of side effects and so far so good. Last week we even went out to eat with Justin's grandparents after his appointment. So he is weighing 16lbs right on the nose and he is 27"!!! He just seems so long. Some of his 3-6month pants still don't fit around the waist...but nothing else is long enough on his legs. Oh well...It is just amazing all the changes we have seen in him. He is really thriving on breast milk and I feel so extremely blessed to be able to give him this. We have been blessed with 6 different milk mamas. We appreciate each and every one of them no matter the size of the donation. We know it takes hard work and lots of dedication to breast feed your own child but to think enough of my child to pump a little extra to donate...well...that is mind blowing to us. Yikees...major tangent there...

Hadrian is officially a roller. He always seems so impressed with himself when he does it. It is so cute. He is nearing the end of being able to use his bouncer seat. It almost goes parallel with the floor when we put him in it. And yesterday on his 5 month birthday...we gave him cereal. It was quite the experience...


I think he ended up wearing more of the cereal than he ate...but that is okay with me. I'm in no hurry.

So I'm really excited about something at walmart.com . I live nearly 8 hours away from my grandma and some extended family. They do not have cell phones. They do not have the internet. (I have no idea how they survive...) Anyway, maybe everyone already knows about this service, but I just found out about it. Basically you upload photos to your walmart photo account. You then *send* it to any store in the US....I sent 40 pictures to my grandma's local walmart and she can pick them up at her convenience!! This is great because I don't have to worry about printing extras or mailing them and having them get all bent up. Nope...they are printed right there in her store. Maybe I'm easily impressed...but we printed our Christmas cards from walmart.com (to our store for same day pick up, I might add) and we were so impressed by their quality. Unfortunately I didn't get them all addressed and never did send them to anyone. You'll just have to take my word for how cute they were...haha.

Hadrian in Pictures

We didn't post any pictures of Hadrian through out the two months that we waited to bring him home so I thought that instead of only posting pictures of him now...I would do like a little timeline....from the beginning to now. In theory it sounds good so....we'll see....
This is the very first picture of Hadrian we saw. I won't forget where we were or what we were doing. I was driving Justin to GFS, we were on RT 30 when I got the text. How stinking beautiful is the only thing I could think.


This is the second picture...


This is from the first night when we met Hadrian...


This is from when my baby brother first held Hadrian. I think Hadrian looks like Kenton....


Hadrian's aunt Lizzy was really great about sending us pictures of him when we weren't able to visit for a few days. She sent us this one...


sweet sleeping boy...


One of all of us...beginning of October....



Brotherly love...


This is from when we randomly ran into Julie and her sisters and Hadrian at Wendy's. I think I was 20 minutes late for work that day...totally worth it...


First day home...Justin is watching a car show *rolls eyes*


The cat checking out Hadrian


I'm pretty sure he's gonna love taco bell too...


Silly expressions...


Putting the Christmas tree up...well watching us do it...


Hanging out with Mama


Christmas Cutie...


Hadrian looooves to sing...I think he is singing here...


Such big beautiful eyes...


So tired...



Justin wearing Hadrian in the mei tai



He is so cute even when he cries...what kind of mama lets the babe cry while she grabs the camera?


And this is Hadrian about 3 days ago...


He is such a big boy! He barely fits in his bouncy seat these days. We feel so blessed that we get to be the parents of this sweet little man. My heart sings when I see him.

On Saturday I went to a baby shower and one of the girls that I kind of know, but not really, was oohing and ahhing over him and then she said "Well, he looks just exactly like you". I was kind of caught off guard...because apparently she didn't know that we adopted him...I didn't want to embarrass her so I graciously said "thank you". I'm not gonna lie, it made me feel good. I know that I'm Hadrian's mama...but I must really look like it to strangers. If that even makes sense....

Well....here's to becoming a regular blogger....

Lazy Blogger

So I know that we brought Hadrian home almost 3 months ago. I know that I really have no excuse as to why my blog is not updated. I have so many things on my to do list...everything is getting pushed aside. But really its not my fault...The blame belongs to one amazing little guy who in some way or another is monopolizing my time.

Would I change that for anything in the world? Oh heck no.

The past two months have been a blur of happiness.

I always knew that I was meant to be a mom...but now I have proof....proof in the way I love my son.

My son.

There are no words sweeter to this mama's ears...

With my last post I was thinking about how our journey had ended. We reached our goal. We brought our son home...Ok, end of story...happily ever after and all that crap. How silly of me. Of course our story had not ended there. Our story as a family had just begun.

I did not make any new year's resolutions this year...I rarely do...see...I'm inherently lazy. And any resolutions go against my very nature. So this year, I did not make any resolutions but I did make up some goals for myself for this year. Yeah, sounds an awful like resolutions to me...but trust me, I wouldn't think twice about breaking a resolution...but a goal...now that is a different story...So here I am...with a gentle nudge from a sweet Milk Mama (that'd be you Amy) I am updating my poor neglected blog.

Hadrian is 143 days old. Today he sucked on a banana. It was cute.

Hadrian is a pro at blowing raspberries. Hadrian has a great belly laugh and a too cute smile. He loves to be sung to and he likes to dance. Hadrian still loves watching tv and gets a real kick out of leaning back on daddy and watching car shows. Hadrian loves to be worn in his mei tai especially at the store. He can roll over, but he doesn't do it on a regular basis...but he is good at rolling from side to side. He loves his crinkly lion, its def his favorite toy. He loves to stand and bounce. And Hadrian is hands down the best snuggler I've ever met.

I'm in the process of getting some more photos on the computer. Not only am I a lazy blogger, I take forever getting pictures from camera to computer. Such a sad existence really.

So hopefully I'll be back...sometime soonish. I won't say for certain, just in case...

Home...

We made it.

Today was hands down...the longest...most beautiful day of my life.

Court went so smoothly. Nothing to worry about at all.

We picked Hadrian up. We said our goodbyes. We know it isn't for forever, we will see them again soon but it was still bittersweet...

Hadrian has slept most of the evening. We drove home and fed him...then headed to Ashland to introduce him to his aunts and Papaw. They all had fun playing pass the baby...and Grammy was able to feed him. He promptly fell asleep again...and we drove home.

We are a family of 4...

So we are gonna take it easy tomorrow just the 3 of us hanging out (Alex went back to his mom's today) and getting to know each other...

the force is strong with this one...

hahaha...too bad my husband doesn't read my blog...he'd love that...

So with that...we say Goodnight...

and I'll be posting pictures very soon...

:)

Leaving...

I'm officially on my maternity leave! Wow.

This might just really happen...

Tonight I'm feeling...anxious.

and happy.

and nervous.

I can't believe that tonight is our last night as a family of 3.

I felt overwhelmed last night when we visited. I'm not sure why. Hadrian was quite a bit fussier than usual and we all knew that it would be the last time we visited before Tuesday. I know they aren't judging me...and of course they know that I am a first time mom...but I still feel judged when I can't get him to stop crying. I'm so insecure sometimes. I did reign supreme and end up being the one who got him to quiet down before I passed him to Daddy who promptly rocked him to sleep.

I just can't believe that after 2 years of waiting I am mere hours away from being a mommy.

I'm hoping that I get some rest tonight. We probably won't...it is worse than Christmas Eve...but our payout is going to be so much more! I am so excited.

So prayers please as birthmom goes to court at 11am...and then we go at 2pm...As soon as it is over we are headed to pick him up. We are going to let the family take their time saying goodbye though. We do not want to rush them so I'm not sure how long we will be there. So that is basically it...

I'll update soon.